2015 – Day 46
A time to cry and a time to laugh. A time to grieve and a time to dance. Ecclesiastes 3:4
Experience: When we get serious about recovery it usually means making drastic changes to our life. I can mean dismantling a lot of the things we have considered supports to help us survive the pain, suffering and drama of addiction and compulsion, This can lead to times of depression, loneliness and uncertainty as we slowly build a new support network Sometimes there are things we feel we just cannot do without or are not ready yet to give up. When I first got serious about recovery I realised I had spent so much of my life creating an image of who I thought people expected me to be that I had really didn’t know the real me and I had to put conscious effort into getting to know the real me before I was ready to move onto being the person God wanted me to be.
Strength: I read a quote many years ago that said “Have faith in your dreams and someday your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving. If you keep believing, the dream that you wish will come true.” All of my life in addiction I was unhappy. I never knew why and everything I did was in pursuit of the happiness I didn’t have. Happiness came when I finally took time and made a commitment to living differently.
There is a verse in the Bible, Luke 12:31 which says “Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need.” I think it’s important this verse doesn’t say “everything you want.” Because usually the things I wanted in my life were the wrong things.
Hope: My hope today is that in every area of my life I will seek what God wants and I will do everything I can to make them the reality of my everyday living. Today’s scripture as well as saying there is “a time to cry and to grieve.” also says there is “a time to laugh and to dance.” Today I hope that you can take the time to enjoy recovery; to laugh and to dance and thank God for all He has done, is doing and will do in your life.