Great blessings belong to those who are sad now. God will comfort them. Matthew 5:4
God is not looking for evidence of who is trying hard or has been good. What He wants from us is sincerity that we are sad about our sinful past. That we acknowledge and admit we are broken. That we are willing to change our lives and follow Him.
If we are God will not ignore our need for His intervention in our lives. He will comfort us, cleanse us and take care us as we move forward process of recovery.