How Much Has Recovery Cost You?
I wrote this after a meeting at Belgrave South Baptist Church a while ago.
You can be sure of this: The Lord set apart the godly for Himself. The Lord will answer when I call to Him. Psalms 4:3
Today at Belgrave South Baptist Church was Testimony meeting in which three people were asked to share what being a Christian has meant giving up for them. I always love it when people share their experience, strength and hope with others in Church.
At home tonight in discussion with the Holy Spirit I considered that question (a bit differently worded, but the same question) The question for me “What have you had to give up for recovery?” You see people look at my life now and only see the life I lead now. And, I am so blessed now because in 1989 I made a conscious decision to let God lead.
I would love to be able to say to people it’s been an easy road but it hasn’t. To gain recovery I had to completely change my life. I had to move State, leave my family and my loved ones and everything I knew. To step out in faith and trust God completely.
The thing I miss most is a continual connection with my Mum and my siblings. Growing up we were an extremely close family and for years now I have only seen them a handful of times. I miss the closeness of daily engagement with my closest friend, my younger brother Eddie. Who I was talking to on Facebook the other night and said to me “We shouldn’t be here Archie” We went through so much together, so much that I am not sure the rest of my family understand. One or both of us due to the choices we made and the lifestyle we led shouldn’t be alive today to talk about it. I’m sure people don’t believe me when I share the stories with them. Yet it’s all true! I was there and I don’t believe a lot of it.
Following a relapse, whilst attending Alcoholics Anonymous in Rockingham in Western Australia God challenged me and said, “If you want to get serious about recovery you need to leave Western Australia.” Something I had done numerous times in my past to try and escape my addictions and compulsions. Something I knew was different that time because I knew God was driving it.
It was a hard decision and an even harder road to stay on. It wasn’t all ‘Moving Forward’ from there. The relapse lasted longer than it should have because I had a really hard time letting go of my past and traveling the ‘recovery road’ alone.
In a Salvation Army Rehabilitation Centre in Mount Barker in South Australia. All alone, with no-one, I met Jesus Christ face to face, made a conscious decision to follow Him and faced up to the truth about my past and my character and the changes I had to make to live differently.
The thing I still miss most about that decision so long ago is the continual, close, connection to my Mum and my siblings who I love so much but know I cannot live in the same State as because it is not in God’s plan for my life at this time in my life.
I have gained so much from that decision but believe me when I say “it has cost me dearly to be a servant of my Servant Lord.”
The road to recovery is a long one for me it started in 1987 and continues today. Over the next few weeks on this website I want to share a number of messages from recovery groups I have shared over the years as I believe they are important steps in my spiritual walk and may be of benefit to others walking this road.