Psalms 19:13 Keep me also from the sins I want to commit. May they not be my master. Then I will be without blame. I will not be guilty of any great sin against your law.
The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous talks about us trying to find an easier, softer way. Human nature is to always take the easy least troublesome way.
You will not forget your past, but you no longer have to live there. There will be things you think about doing but won’t do because you now know better.
Thinking it isn’t doing it. Step six is about behavioral change. Thought change can take longer. I have had people come to me in recovery and say “I had a dream about drinking last night.” It happens. If you have suffered from alcohol addiction your body is used to being driven by alcohol. The same for drugs etc. The important thing is under no circumstances pick up the first one.