NOW THAT I AM IN THE PROCESS OF CHANGE,
I WILL CHECK MYSELF DAILY TO MAKE SURE I AM NOT SLIPPING BACK INTO MY OLD WAYS
IF I AM, I WILL TAKE STEPS TO RECTIFY IT.
When Jesus arrived, he saw this huge crowd. At the sight of them, his heart broke–like sheep with no shepherd they were. He went right to work teaching them. When his disciples thought this had gone on long enough–it was now quite late in the day–they interrupted: “We are a long way out in the country, and it’s very late. Pronounce a benediction and send these folks off so they can get some supper.” Jesus said, “You do it. Fix supper for them.” They replied, “Are you serious? You want us to go spend a fortune on food for their supper?” But he was quite serious. “How many loaves of bread do you have? Take an inventory.” That didn’t take long. “Five,” they said, “plus two fish.” Jesus got them all to sit down in groups of fifty or a hundred–they looked like a patchwork quilt of wildflowers spread out on the green grass! He took the five loaves and two fish, lifted his face to heaven in prayer, blessed, broke, and gave the bread to the disciples, and the disciples, in turn, gave it to the people. He did the same with the fish. They all ate their fill. The disciples gathered twelve baskets of leftovers. More than five thousand were at supper. Mark 6:34-44
Step Ten is about taking regular inventory of where we are at in this stage of our spiritual development. What we currently have that is useful for helping ourselves and others and what the Holy Spirit can add to what we currently have as we put our trust in Him.
I love this scripture and how Jesus, even though He knew what the disciples had, and what He was going to do with it. Says “take inventory” It is important in the recovery process that we continually take inventory, not just in our own character and behaviours but also in how much we have moved forward from the last time we took inventory. ‘What weaknesses did I display yesterday that I have changed today?’ Recovery is about daily progress, not daily perfection.
We have all sinned and fall short of God’s perfect plan for our lives. We can’t succeed in recovery and in life in our own strength. That is why we all need Jesus and we all need recovery.
In His strength, we will always have more than we need to do the things He is calling us to do.