Galatians 5:1  Freedom is what we have—Christ has set us free! Stand, then, as free people, and do not allow yourselves to become slaves again.

The discovery I was an alcoholic came early in my life. Blackouts, fessing up for things I still don’t know if I did to this day. The knowledge that people tolerated me but didn’t really like me or the way I lived.  Going public with it wasn’t really a surprise to me or to others. Being honest about it did help me to change my ways and started me on the road to ‘Spiritual Recovery.’ I admitted my life was a mess and I needed help to change it. I accepted that my overindulgence in alcohol and other mind-altering substances were symptoms of deeper character flaws I needed to deal with if I wanted my life to change. It took me time to completely come to terms with the facts about my life, my past, and my future. Gradually conviction to the ‘process of recovery’ [which I believe was God’s intervention] had to become my ‘new and living way of life.’ I am glad that whilst young enough to change my character  I was faced with a realistic picture of my awful self.  I knew then I needed to change, and alcohol alone was not my only problem.

It was no good trying to hide from the truth. Although I didn’t like myself and was shattered by what I had done and what I had become. I realized it was stupid to deny my circumstances with my new-found knowledge of ‘the truth’ Running away from life and reality and the option of isolation from everything and everyone dear to me a very real threat.

I thanked God for the realization of defeat, for the rough road of awareness and bringing me to a junction where I had to choose. To either break with my past or to trust Him to lead me to redemption and recreation. I grasped with both hands the verses Proverbs 3:5-6  Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not depend on your own understanding.  In all your ways remember him. Then he will make your paths smooth and straight. And today “I am changed.” and “I will never be the same again!”