I Admitted My Life Was a Mess

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The Bible says “I’m a mess. I’m nothing and have nothing: make something of me.” Psalms 40:17 When we first arrive a rock-bottom we feel pretty worthless and can relate to the verse above. But the first step to beginning the recovery process is admitting the mess we are in. Usually mess that has been created by our own bad attitudes, beliefs, and choices.

Recovery is a process of clearing up the self-created mess so we can change our lives with Jesus help. Psalms 79:9  says You’re famous for helping; God, give us a break. Your reputation is on the line. Pull us out of this mess, forgive us our sins– do what you’re famous for doing! Committing to following through on the Twelve Steps, and allowing Jesus to do His will in our lives until completion is the biggest decision any of us make in recovery.

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Step Four ~ Week Two

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Job 31 2-37what can I expect from God? What do I deserve from God Almighty above Isn’t calamity reserved for the wicked? Isn’t disaster supposed to strike those who do wrong. Isn’t God looking, observing how I live? Doesn’t he mark every step I take? “Have I walked hand in hand with falsehood, or hung out in the company of deceit? Weigh me on a set of honest scales so God has proof of my integrity. If I’ve strayed off the straight and narrow, wanted things I had no right to, messed around with sin,Go ahead, then—give my portion to someone who deserves it.

“If I’ve let myself be seduced by a woman and conspired to go to bed with her, Fine, my wife has every right to go ahead and sleep with anyone she wants to. For disgusting behavior like that, I’d deserve the worst punishment you could hand out. Adultery is a fire that burns the house down; I wouldn’t expect anything I count dear to survive it.

“Have I ever been unfair to my employees when they brought a complaint to me? What, then, will I do when God confronts me? When God examines my books, what can I say Didn’t the same God who made me, make them? Aren’t we all made of the same stuff, equals before God?

“Have I ignored the needs of the poor, turned my back on the indigent, Taken care of my own needs and fed my own face while they languished? Wasn’t my home always open to them? Weren’t they always welcome at my table?

“Have I ever left a poor family shivering in the cold when they had no warm clothes? Didn’t the poor bless me when they saw me coming, knowing I’d brought coats from my closet?

“If I’ve ever used my strength and influence to take advantage of the unfortunate, Go ahead, break both my arms, cut off all my fingers! The fear of God has kept me from these things— how else could I ever face him?

“Did I set my heart on making big money or worship at the bank? Did I boast about my wealth, show off because I was well-off? Was I ever so awed by the sun’s brilliance and moved by the moon’s beauty that I let myself become seduced by them and worshiped them on the sly? If so, I would deserve the worst of punishments, for I would be betraying God himself.

“Did I ever crow over my enemy’s ruin? Or gloat over my rival’s bad luck? No, I never said a word of detraction, never cursed them, even under my breath.

“Didn’t those who worked for me say, ‘He fed us well. There were always second helpings’? And no stranger ever had to spend a night in the street; my doors were always open to travelers.

Did I hide my sin the way Adam did, or conceal my guilt behind closed doors Because I was afraid what people would say, fearing the gossip of the neighbors so much that I turned myself into a recluse? You know good and well that I didn’t.

“Oh, if only someone would give me a hearing! I’ve signed my name to my defense—let the Almighty One answer! I want to see my indictment in writing.Anyone’s welcome to read my defense; I’ll write it on a poster and carry it around town. I’m prepared to account for every move I’ve ever made— to anyone and everyone, prince or pauper.

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Job 31 asks a lot of questions about our character and the way we lived prior to recovery. In the midst of our addictions and problems most of us have experienced loneliness and rejection. Not because people didn’t love us, didn’t like us. But, because our behavior, our attitudes and the way we hurt ourselves and others were too much for them to stand by and watch without interfering.

Job wanted God to show him his failures. He was tired of suffering (if you don’t know the sufferings of Job I suggest you read the book of Job) But Job knew God was merciful and God could show him what he needed to change.

And God can show us too what needs to change in our character to help us become the people He created us to be and living the lives He has planned for each of us.

In recovery we need to take inventory and we need to wrote it down look at verses 35-37 again.

 

“If only someone would give me a hearing! I’ve signed my name to my defense—let the
Almighty One answer! I want to see my indictment in writing. Anyone’s welcome to read my defense; I’ll write it on a poster and carry it around town. I’m prepared to account for every move I’ve ever made— to anyone and everyone, prince or pauper.”

  • We record our sinful attitudes and behaviors so we “can see our indictments in writing.”
  • We record our sinful attitudes and behaviors so when it comes to the process of confession to God and to someone that we trust we won’t be tempted to lie or justify them.
  • We record our sinful attitudes and behaviors to keep us accountable for what we have done and doing something about repenting and making amends for our past.
  • We record what we our sinful attitudes and behaviors so we can see spiritual progress as we walk the road of recovery with God.
  • We record our sinful attitudes and behaviors to stop us from falling back into them.
  • We record our sinful attitudes and behaviors to help us to deal with the shame they have installed in us and with God’s help uninstall them.

Job says “I am prepared to account for every move I ever made.”

Are you? Because that is what it takes to ‘Take an open and honest inventory of our lives.” and let God show us how to change and help us to do it.

We need to honestly examine our character and pray that God will reveal to us anything that exists in our us that we may not have seen up to this stage of our progress in the recovery process.

#19-God is With You

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Psalms 13:1 Lord, how long must I wait? Will you forget me forever? How long will you turn your face away from me?

 It takes time to settle into the new routine of ‘Daily Recovery Life’ For so long our lives have just been a mess, no routine, and no support.

One of the big reasons for bale out in recovery is ‘impatience’ People don’t wait around long enough for the miracle to happen.

Be encouraged! God has not forgotten you and He has not brought you this far to leave you where you are.

As you move forward in the recovery process God is going to be calling on you more and more. For now, just enjoy the journey.

  • Do you feel you have progressed in the recovery process?
  • How?

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